Death is unnecessary to me. I relive my experiences again and again. In this very same life. I keep doing the same mistakes. I wish to learn from those past errors and not repeat them. So I use shitload of tools to help me with that. Psychotherapy, diary and meditation being some of them. Is there a result? Yes. I have become more conscious and aware.
I know about my weaknesses and I can predict how would I react in some situations. So, do I avoid falling into the same holes over and over? No. But I am more conscious and aware when I step into them and enjoy the free fall. Awesome. It is like sitting in a passenger seat and experiencing a car crash. The difference from my past experiences is, that previously I was asleep when the crash happened. Now I am awake. The result? I am pretty much fucked up from the car crash! Maybe I can describe more clearly what has happened. Is that enough? Or is that a good start and I am impatient?
I start to embrace a sort of tragicomic view on this. Otherwise I would just go insane. Or did I already?
From Birth To Insanity 
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